I’ve been spending a lot of time lately planning a move. It’s not a tragedy, I know. It’s just one of those things that requires work, much like finding a job or learning a new skill—you have to deal with some discomfort, things aren’t exactly easy, there are costs and, in the end, you hope you emerge a little different, a little wiser, having gone through it.

side of chocolate truffle cookie

Last week, my brother and I were talking about logistics—you know, the obvious things of furniture, moving trucks, long drives across several states—and I kept trying to find a way to solve things better. He’d say, Why don’t you buy a bed when you get there? And I’d say, I don’t want to spend the money! He’d say, It’s not that much money. And I’d say, I am going to be broke!

It was kind of funny, actually. Or at least it is now.

From a removed standpoint, I see the problem. What I want is not just to relocate. I want to relocate without spending any money, losing any sleep, causing anyone any difficulty. I want to relocate without relocating. Or at least, I want relocating in a perfect world.

fudgy insides of chocolate truffle cookie

It’s such a silly thing to get stressed out about. It’s just moving. But you know, I’ve been thinking about it, and whether you’re talking about moving or the way two dozen white hairs emerge on your 20-something head, the fact is that this world really isn’t a perfect place. We’re reminded of imperfections every day, in the big things of murder and suffering as well as the small things of long lines and angry strangers. We all taste difficulty. We all experience frustration. In different ways and at different times, but still. I mean, I don’t even watch the news, and I can tell you from experience that there is pain and hardship in this life.

But the thing I am thankful for, even more than that in this life there is also joy, is that the imperfections of this world remind me of life beyond it.

Like Elisabeth Elliot wrote:

Heaven is not here, it’s There. If we were given all we wanted here, our hearts would settle for this world rather than the next.

Oh, that’s so good.

chocolate truffle cookies

I am also thankful—very thankful—for the good gifts we taste now.

Like blue skies.
Like eyes to see them.
Like a sun that rises every morning, as faithfully as the God who made it.

And I am thankful for my particular gifts, like love, like self-employment, like the way these things are moving me towards a move. I am thankful, this week, for some time in the kitchen to bake cookies—the best chocolate chocolate cookies I’ve made really, little nibbles that are more than just cookies but actually like the lovechild of cookies and truffles combined, soft and rich, covered in chopped walnuts.

I’m thankful to sit cross-legged in the kitchen on a Tuesday afternoon, with a giant white bowl and a big spoon, licking chocolate batter in contentment, grateful for what I have, even more grateful for what will come.






Chocolate Truffle Cookies
Adapted from All Recipes
Makes about 40 to 48 cookies

I made this recipe twice, the first time halved. But those first 24 precious cookies went so quickly, I had to make a full batch shortly thereafter. Consider yourself warned.

Ingredients:
1/2 cup of unsalted butter (1 stick)
1/2 cup of coconut oil (or butter)
1 1/4 cups Sucanat (or sugar)
2 eggs
2 teaspoons vanilla extract
2 cups flour (I used white spelt)
2/3 cup cocoa powder
3/4 teaspoons baking soda
1/4 teaspoon sea salt
1 3.5-ounce bar of good-quality dark chocolate, chopped finely (you could get by with half a bar if you’d like)
For rolling cookies: 1 cup of walnuts, chopped very finely

Directions:
Preheat oven to 350 degrees F.

In a big bowl, beat together butter, coconut oil, sugar, eggs and vanilla. In a separate bowl, combine flour, cocoa powder, baking soda and salt. Then add the dry mixture to the wet until well blended. Stir in chopped chocolate. Form dough into balls and place on baking sheets, baking for 8 to 10 minutes in preheated oven.

For walnut-rolled version: Roll balls of dough in chopped walnuts, covering them completely. Gently flatten balls of dough on sheet before baking.

Cooksnaps
Shanna Mallon started Food Loves Writing back in 2008, as a way to remember her grandma and write about her life through food. Since then it's become a place leading her to a lifestyle of eating whole foods, a new home in Nashville and the love of her life, Tim. Follow Shanna on Twitter @foodloves, keep up with Food Loves Writing on Facebook and stay inspired with the monthly newsletter.

This Post Has 25 Comments

  1. sara

    so exciting. i know exactly how you feel. I too crave change and new routines, but i have meltdowns when they actually happen. All very confusing, but good :) Wishing you the best and the cookies look so tasty!

  2. Alicia

    I didn’t know the move was official. I’m really sad right now. Which is dumb. I’m so happy for you! And I barely see you anyway. But I’m still sad. Promise we’ll get together before you leave? But I love that some things never change… you still produce cookie recipes that I want to try eeeeverytime. And that doesn’t have to change no matter where you live!

  3. Elise

    I love the quote you’ve shared even more than I love the recipe I think! The idea of it is something that encourages me pretty much on a daily basis, but I haven’t ever found such an eloquent way to say it. Thanks! (To Elisabeth too…)
    Also I don’t think I can pass up the cookie recipe… they will be made tonight with the Dagoba mint/dark chocolate bar in my cupboard! woohoo!

  4. summer

    hello, hello! thanks so much for the link:) that is one of my most favorite quotes!!

    and wow, these cookies look delisch.
    and WOW, your spot here is so lovely.
    so happy to have found you!

  5. The Food Hound

    The lovechild of cookies and truffles, love it!! Love the quote, too! Moving is never easy (take it from me, I’m a veteran!) but it gives you the most wonderful opportunity to start new, discover things about yourself, test your own limits.. and find some AMAZING new restaurants :)

  6. Dana

    Ohmigosh yum! With the number of truffles I gave away over the holidays and not getting to taste them, I think our house deserves some truffle cookies.

    As for the move, it’s hard to let go of the hopes of relocating smoothly, or as you so eloquently put it: relocating without relocating. A move is never easy, but moving is a big change in your life, and change rarely comes easy either. Hopefully things will go as smoothly as possible and you’ll be enjoying your new home soon.

  7. Shannalee

    sara, ha! meltdown is so the right word.

    alicia, you are so right: there will always be cookies, and always on this blog. i’m glad we’ll still be connected here–but you still ought to come visit! : )

    jacqui, no leases signed yet, but I’m hoping to nail things down next weekend. change, here I come!

    elise, you know, I do too! and that’s saying something. : )

    summer, as I am to be reading you. that quote has stayed with me since you posted it. thank YOU.

    food hound, ha! glad you liked that. and yes, you are right: lots of opportunities and excitement ahead.

    antonietta, oh, I guess I thought I’d said before? for anyone else who’s wondering too: Nashville! I’m moving to Tennessee.

    kim, I can’t wait to have more to tell!

    tim, well now you have the recipe…

    hannah, thank you! is nashville closer to where you are? i know it’s nearer Georgia…

    emily, Nashville! miss you!

    dana, truffles for holiday gifts? love that. hope you enjoy these cookie versions! : )

    lisa, Nashville! and oh, I love fun bakeries. thanks for your sweet words, blog friend.

  8. MaryAnn

    Isn’t it great – the conflicting emotions we get to feel? I would be excited & terrified, dreading while anticipating. And yeah, I would stress over money too. Just remember that the Lord meets all of our needs – even the money ones! I’m excited to hear about your plans; keep us updated!
    By the way, I’m reading this at work & after peeking over my shoulder at the pictures one of my coworkers has politely demanded that I make these cookies, pronto! :-) I just might have to do that!

  9. Maddie

    I am so happy for you! I know just how you feel, about the excitement of moving and, at the same time, the overwhelming thoughts of logistical matters. I’m sad that our time in Chicago might not overlap, but you deserve a change and a fresh start—go after it with everything you’ve got!

  10. Shannalee

    MaryAnn, He does indeed. Thanks for that reminder! And make these for your coworker! : )

    Jolynn, I love when sometimes says me too. Thank you!

    Anne, : ) Great advice. Thanks!

    Maddie, I know! But never fear, I still have deep roots up here, and I’m sure I’ll be around. We just may get to meet after all.

    Sylvie, Ha! Try them! And thank you!

  11. boiled sweets

    Amen! Posts like this really strengthen my faith towards the greatness of our Lord.

    Yeah, I am very thankful about the blue skies too. I don’t know, when I feel so worried and exhausted, I just tilt my head up towards the horizon and I feel so relieved. The vastness seemed like an assurance that someone over there will always be there will be in-charge of our live if we only permit Him…. Great work as always Shan and I badly need these cookies right now!

    Have exciting and great days at Nashville! :)

  12. Susan

    Thanks for this post. I’m not moving but I feel the same way about a few things. I’ve had some serious car troubles (and mac troubles) and though in the grand scheme of things they aren’t significant, they have really been stressing me out. I need a batch of those cookies!

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